Thursday, July 3, 2008 . 9:54 PM

*sighs* With what is possibly the worst exam result in my whole entire life, I can safely say that, in order to do anything close to well, effort needs to be put in. To be honest, I have never liked the education system in Singapore; the scatterburst system, where one spends so much time to study subjects just to forget them two years later. The phantoms of history, geography, literature, and biology gives this accusation shape and solidity; subjects I have learnt vaguely about the past years and have almost completely forgotten now. It is hard to deny the fact that education here is inherently flawed; it's like a journey forcing you to carry heavy, heavy bags, and to drop some of them unopened at checkpoints. And soon, chemistry, and economics would join the festival of ghosts, haunting me as I think of time lost; which I could have used for an inifinite amount of things.

I strongly feel this way, but unfortunately, the more I think about my views, the more I realize that... no matter how correct they maybe, there is no point in sodding about them. After all, for the likes of me, and many others, our system is the only sure step forward. The road may be long and winding, but it's the only clear one. All other paths, such as entrepreunership, lead into dark forests of the unknown, which may result in people falling into ditches or getting eaten by leprachauns by something; though I guess the wary do make it out with money faster than those who go by education. But... there's no complaining about it... I have to do well, because I have no alternative. I maybe gifted in compososition, but the truth remains that there are many better than me out there. Same goes to story writing or programming; education is the only sure step forward. And I have to abide by that path; due to my environment; there's no way around it.

This is not to say that I agree with education even on the most basic level; I consider a composed song; a story written, worth a day of school, and there are instances where I have skipped school due to mild discomforts for the sake of finishing these pet projects. No one can blame me for this, for material that can be looked back on with pride more than compensates forhalf-filled lecture notes and lost 'going through time'.

*sighs*

Okay, this rant has no point at all, as I have stated, since there is no other way to go it. It probably indicates, however, that I have lost the drive to study anything quite a long time ago; and the fact that the method worked (to some extent) for the 'O's did... encourage me a little. It is sad, but the truth remains that I must work harder, with great reluctance, in order to score well enough to fight another year. Perhaps some subjects could be worked on; perhaps I could do some psychological tricks for motivation; perhaps I can set certain people as the benchmark to aim for. Either way, I have to do something about this; being able to spell BEES with grades is not a good thing in any sense.

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